Slacking!!!! Yet, thriving!!!

So, it has truly been too long since my last post, but I have had hardly a moment to breathe! I was still very sick with my flare the last time that I posted anything, and was hoping that I would be on the road to recovery sooner than later. Well, I thankfully put aside my stubborn ways and did what the doctor advised and took prednisone. I'm so thankful that I listened!

Now, I am not only healthy and off the prednisone, but I am looking forward to a long period of remission.

With that said, I can not express enough about finding a good doctor! I love my new GI doctor! He understood my standpoint and not only took them into consideration, but he eloquently explained the reasoning behind his methods and helped me understand the process of healing for someone with my condition. He was conservative in his practices and prescribing as to not throw the most hardcore medicine at me that others had tried to do. I'm grateful that I am better and have a new perspective on my Ulcerative Colitis and healing process, also I have a new found respect for my doctor.

Now that I am feeling better, and have had such a new profound experience of physical suffering, I am able to have a new view of life in general, and my perspective of what I want and what I am here in this life has changed as well.

I know that God had a huge hand in my healing, and the wisdom that was projected through my doctor. I now daily give Him the first moments of my day and start my day with the gratitude He deserves and the thanksgiving that I can only express in the fraction of words that I know how to express. 

Don't get me wrong, I am still far from perfect in my walk and ways, but I have cleared away most of the junk that has clouded my mind and ability to be the woman that God created me to be.

I remember when I was so sick, physically tired from running to the bathroom 30+ times a day, and all I could do was lay down on the couch as my kids played. I wanted so badly to be there for them and be the mom that they couldn't understand I couldn't be. I told myself that if ( I say "if" because I truly didn't know if I could live long with how I was feeling) I would not be such a stressed out mom, and I would take each moment at a time with my children. I don't want to be a slave to the stress and struggle of tomorrow when the only thing that deserves my attention is the present and right in front of me.

I have a new found love of my God given talents, and know that He has given them to me for reasons that I can not truly comprehend. I want to be the woman that God envisioned and accomplish what he has desired for me and those who are around me and those who may be effected by my actions in the future.

I hope to be more present in my writings and hope to be an inspiration to all those who take notice!