When all was still in motion and nothing had actually changed, there was a sense of "too good to be true" in my mind.
It actually seemed that way for months after our move as well.
I mean, how could all these wonderful things actually happen?
How could my desires and dreams actually come true?!
For so many years I had dreamed of what I wanted.
I am not the type of person who dreams of fame or fortune, but rather to create and to live in God's beautiful nature.
Before we had lived a decent place (we were surrounded by good people and made many wonderful friends) but it was not what I loved. I disliked (to put it nicely) the heat, I disliked the drive of wanting more money by everyone around me, I hated the judgmental attitudes that seemed to be the majority of people that I encountered and it was not where I wanted to raise my children.
So I prayed.
For years I prayed the same prayer.
I prayed to be closer to the coast.
I prayed to be in redwoods.
I prayed to be closer to family.
I prayed to be able to be home with my children.
I prayed to be able to use my God given talents daily.
I prayed for my husband to have a secure and stable job that he enjoyed.
*Note that I prayed for these things for years.*
There were times that I prayed and I would cry wondering why God was not listening(or at least He seemed to not be listening).
But truth be told, He heard every word of every prayer every day.
He felt my ache in my heart when I didn't understand His timing or when I thought He had forgotten about me and my desires.
But, He knew me more than I knew myself.
He knew that if He had given me what I wanted when I wanted it, I would not have been prepared and I may not have had the gratitude that I have now.
He had every small detail planned exactly as it should have been.
The thing that I, myself, needed to learn from all of this was not just patience and waiting on Him, but I needed to trust Him with all my heart and soul that He was going to provide my every desire while my heart 100% seeks Him and what His will for me is.
This whole process and the amazing changes that He has put into motion and the fact that He has given me these wonderful desires of my heart, I have learned, were when my desires and my heart are pure and I am seeking Him full heartedly.
HIS desire is to give me my desires, but when I am seeking Him full heartedly my desires ARE His desires.
We are on the same page.
There, in this, is so much joy.
Pure Holy Joy.
Now I'm here...the place I've prayed for for years.
He has given me so much.
My desires of my heart are fulfilled and I feel amazing.
With this act of Love that My creator has given me, I am in awe.
I am so full of gratitude.
Now, I have the ability to be who I want to be, do what I have been desiring to do, create what I have been wanting to create...and I have no doubt in my mind or heart that all that I am doing, creating and being is exactly what He desires of me as well.
His Love Language is beyond this universe.
I encourage all of you to seek Him first...It's an amazing life if you do.
My backyard...
working on my artwork
My boy in the redwoods
BANANA SLUGS ARE AWESOME!!
SeaShells by the Seashore
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I'm finally near the ocean!
Me near our swimming hole
My babies in the magic forest
Incomplete, but another watercolor...
The view of my runs...
Working on a piece that is for a cancer patient (some of my favorite pieces are for those going through hardships)
working on more watercolor...
And...more watercolor
God has given me talents and a mission that I can't ignore.
Though He much to reveal to me, and I will continue to seek what it is that He wants for me and my life, I will take each day and greet it with gratitude and excitement.
God Bless!
