Ulcerative Colitis SUCKS!

Yep…I said it. 

It's funny, cause I totally understand why sick people become depressed when they are feeling sick. I don't feel depressed right now, but I can see how others would become so…especially those who are terminal and have worsening symptoms.
One major reason is because of the feeling of isolation and being alone. When you're sick, you can't be as active as a healthy person, or as social for that matter…it causes one to feel alone.
Also, Others really CAN'T understand another persons pain unless they have...

1. The ability to be super sensitive to other people and their needs. This is very possible…just rare nowadays with the rise of narcissism.
2. Been sick themselves and know the pain and isolation.

The feeling of Isolation is real!

So, as you may tell…I am having a flare-up. One of those damning things that takes away from the quality of life that I desperately hold dear and try hard not to take for granted.
I am a mom…and a stay-at-home one for the most par.
Most think that that fact alone would make my life easier: I could rest all day with my feet up, eating bonbons and watch soap operas…WRONG!!!

This is the life I live with a flare-up…

• I get up as early as I can to "enjoy" a cup of coffee and read my bible before my children wake up. 

With a flare-up, coffee is not good for you, as it causes you to go to the bathroom even more. That is one thing that you kinda want to avoid, as the more you "go" the more you cramp and bleed. BUT…if I don't have my morning cup of coffee…I am asking for a migraine-One of the wonderful things that has been pasted down in my genetic gene pool from my mother. So…any of you who have had a migraine…a true migraine…know that stomach cramps over a migraine is much easier to cope with.

• I then have to run around trying to get the kids ready for the day/school. Making breakfast, making lunches, making sure they're dressed appropriately for the cold/hot weather, and doing all of this while having multiple runs to the bathroom.

A Clue To The Panic Of Bathroom Breaks…

Do you remember the scene in the movie "Dumb and Dumber" when Harry, who unknowingly ingested the large amount of laxatives that Lloyd gave him, had an acute attack and had to RUN to the bathroom. Well, that's pretty close to what it's like…without the humor, but always at a bad time.

If only it was THIS funny!

• On the way to dropping of the kids at school, I know all the available bathroom stops, and pray that there is no need for a stop…especially the places that there is no available bathroom.
• At home, the need for food is much higher than the want for food. You're hungry because your body needs the nutrition, but you know that the more you eat, the more you'll have to go, and that idea alone is enough for someone to loose their appetite.
• Trying to get housework done is not too hard, except for the unexpected run to the bathroom half way through a task.
• Then there are errands…you only do what you HAVE TO, and leave the rest for your spouse or another time all together - hopefully leaving it for a time when you're feeling better, or more adventurous. 

Then there is the talk of healing…how does one with my condition heal from this? This is a totally loaded question…one for another post. I just want those who are reading this to understand that the pain and the turmoil is real…

 and that those who are going through this as well…You're NOT alone! 

There are tons of others going through this right now at this exact moment. 

It's not fun and is a bowl full of emotional and physical feelings. 

Find time to vent…blog, journal, call a trusted family member or friend, talk to a counselor.

You should be able to ease your stress in many different HEALTHY ways. 

I will touch on the healing topic a little later…My idea of healing the gut might be a little different...